The trouble was that the back pain was just my sciatica playing up but when it wouldn't go even though i was trying to walk it off it just got worse. then it was thought i'd slipped a disc, again the treatment didn't work.
on top of this i'd been whinging about hot flushes and painful hips. had blood test and doctor said i was perrimenopause, which is the start of the menopause but not in full swing, so was sent for a scan to see if anything else would back up the menopause.
At my scan found that not only does my left ovary like to play hide and seek but my tubes are twisted and have a growth on my ovary.
The results came back within 7 days and saw the doctor who said i had fryboids and "lots of other stuff floating around". After a discussion about treatment a hysterectomy was the best bet. I have no intention of any more children and would rather have the chance to have a normal life than what i have now.
By time I saw the consultant i was in loads of pain, i could hardly walk. It turns out that theres a good chance that my womb is attached to my bowel and also the tube that connects kidneys and bladder is stuck to womb as well so that when i move it tries to pull its self apart which is why the pain is near enough constant. The "floating bits" are the endo. He upped my painkillers and then last month they were upped again. I now have a date for my op and it feels like the end is in sight.
The last 2 months I have had to rely on everybody, a lot. I can hardly walk very far, just make it to the shops. Can't even do my daily walk to school, can't stand and most of the time I can't even sit as it feels like I have something stuck either just under my ribs or just above my hip bone. sometimes it feels like its on the bone.
For the first time in ages I have drove down to London. I must have got myself in a nice comfortable place as i had no pain until I stopped and walked around. This is quite an achievement although as I type i can feel the pressure on my hip. The way I can describe it is like a baby's foot stuck on my bone. I keep getting the urge to move it but it wouldn't do any good.
I have also invested in a heat pad. As any sufferer will tell you the hot water bottle is your best friend but when your by yourself getting up to keep refilling it, especially on a bad day, can get tiring. The pad is the best thing and so worth the £29!
The one thing that is hard (other than crippling pain) is the tiredness. Its sometimes very near to exhaustion. On the bad days just making my breakfast is hard and have to sit down others I can wash up and get some washing in the machine and a bit of baking. I can rarely bend over and if i stand too long (2 mins +) i get dizzy.
My poor husband and children have to put up with a lot and I can't wait till I am no longer a burden on them and I can do everything myself without getting stuck. I've lost all my strength and can hardly open things or hold the dog.
